Waiting

waiting

and waiting

It just sucks

when Im unable to contact you

been waiting for more than an hour

for you to come online

you don’t know how much

I’ve missed you

Just like the summer

i never hesistate

Just as the screwed up day

couldn’t get anymore screwed

it just did

Life is really

just super boring

just when you can’t get enough of holidays

you’re sick of it

I miss you

more than ever

and ever

It’s night

the day has drawn by extremely slowly

spending the whole day counting down

and its not even at midnight yet

today sucked

and tomorrow’s not going to get any better

Cheers,

my life sucks

What am I to you?

Holidays are here :D

but if this means

we can go out to have fun

your wrong

Well,

it’s not that i can’t

its someone else

We probably won’t be able to go out anyday

your so busy with all of your friends

but nevermind

I would show you

my BIG and WARM smile

You..

don’t know how worried Iam

However much i want to help

you always push me away

even though it matters so much to me

i want to scream it all out

i kept silent

I really wished i could help

to know what i can help you with

can’t you even try

do you think i won’tbe able to handle it?

Whats the point of loving you

when all i can do

is to watch you suffer

and feeling helpless

about it

I don’t enjoy this anymore than you do

really

why can’t you just let me know

please

A long and slow day

it’s almost drawing to an end

but I don’t feel relieved at all

I spent the whole day thinking

about what I did to make you upset

but nothing came to my mind

I still don’t know why your ignoring me

If it’s something I did

I’m sorry

saying sorry doesn’t help

but you not telling me your mind

doesn’t help either

Is it that hard to speak out your thoughts

are you afraid of hurting me?

or are you afraid that what you say would end up hurting yourself

my mind’s a blank

you’ve left me pondering

thinking about the passing events

and all that I’ve said and done

Isn’t it childish

that we have to resort to this each time we argue

I think it’s a way

that we can escape each other

hiding behind our facial masks

that displays a pool of fake emotions

aren’t you tired of it?

Ignoring each other doesn’t solve the problems

that’s what I’ve learnt

it just widens the already massive gap between us

is there no way to seal it up?

cant we overcome everything together?

There really is nothing to consider

its just you

and me

we can solve any problems there are

but why

is it that you have to always

keep these unhealthy thoughts to yourself

You don’t get how frustrating it is

for me to have to guess your thoughts

yes it really gets on my nerves

each time you refuse to tell it to me

I just laugh it off

but really

its hard

I finally how Edward Cullen feels

well,

I ain’t no Edward

I know hes some wholly godlike handsome vampire

and I’m nothing compared to him

but i feel theres something in common

His heart has been taken my Bella

just as mine

Has been taken by you..

(P.s) pardon the indents, tumblr screwed up my post.

4th month

Nothing just seems right

yeap everythings just wrong

and i don’t know how to fix it